KimikoGlaciem

If anyone sees this just Ignore. Apparently journaling helps to feel better when you're having suicidal thoughts. Yet again depression has a nice firm grip on me and I'm stuck in a rut of not being able to create anything. No matter how hard I try I either can't muster the energy/concentration/motivation to start anything new, or I do start but I looks pathetic and I give up. I just feel lost and trapped. I don't know what to do with my life anymore and i'm questioning whether I deserve to have a life at all. I'm alone with no friends, following or community and too much ambition but no talent. My work still never be popular enough to be successful, I'll never be able to make a living out of it even though artists with similar work to me so it no problem. Then there's a ton of problems at home on top of that. I feel worthless and hopeless. I can't go to anyone for help or advise.. I just live day by day feeling worse and worse and suicide is looking awfully attractive right now but I know I won't have to guts to do anything.